Is the stupidest fucking lie ever told.
Is the stupidest fucking lie ever told.
I don’t know what I’m supposed to feel right now…
So I’ve noticed that you’ve been avoiding me for the past couple of days. I don’t know whether its because of the fact that I’ve given you another hickey or because of the fact that I’ve gotten sick. Either way, I feel like it’s something that has to do with me.
If it’s cause of the hickey, then my bad but you and I both know I cant resist it sometimes.
If it’s cause of the fact that I got sick, then I’m probably gonna get a little irritated because I would expect you to at least try to help me get better and comfort me. Instead you told me you were sick but then you go out to Taco Tuesday with SigmaNu and get high on a school night. Since when does a fucking sick person do that. When I had you come over when I made you that tea, you did NOT seem sick at all. You just seemed tired and irritated at me.
Well, I for one, am not going to be the first one to approach you again like I always have. Maybe I’ll just go out all weekend and not bother calling or telling you where I’m at. Since you didn’t bother to do it, why should I right?
It’s Thanksgiving day. Here’s a list off the top of my head of all the things I’m thankful for:
The list can probably go on and on but these are pretty much the first things that popped up in my mind. They are in no particular order of any sort.
I’m so determined to at least vacation at these 4 places once in my life. Canada, I’ve been many times to visit my family; however, I have yet to vacation in Paris, Korea, or Hawaii. I can’t wait till I have the money and time to go.
Studying at the ZTA house is seriously the best. It’s so quiet and peaceful and it’s so easy to focus. The place is so neat and air conditioned so we aren’t dying of a heat stroke. There’s perfect lighting so we don’t even need to turn on any lights. I’m drinking an ice cold Jarritos from the fridge while typing this. There really is nothing negative about this house, it’s great. There’s nothing to distract us- oh, never mind, one of the house girls just turned on the shower and that was loud as fuck LOL
All my sisters are so sweet. Right now, I’m with two of them and they’re acting as if I’ve been a part of the Theta Phi Chapter forever. It’s like I’m not even a new member.
Finally, a place where I feel like I fit in. I can’t wait for what this year has in store for me.
What the fuck is the point of friendship when one person is just using and taking advantage of the other person.
That’s not even friendship.
I don’t know why I’m reacting like this. It’s been ages since we’ve spoken, I constantly ignored you, turned you down, avoided you, and treated you like shit after the new year began. You kept trying and finally gave up a few months ago, yet you suddenly keep popping up in my head. I don’t fucking understand. This isn’t supposed to happen. Maybe it’s cause you’ve moved on and seem happy with your life while I feel like I fucked up at every step and turn during my short time in college.
I need to figure myself out…..
At this point, I don’t even give a fuck about whether or not you’re going to see what I’m gonna say. I don’t even know why it’s bothering me so much.
What the fuck is your problem. Blocking me on instagram, unfriending me on Facebook. What the fuck did I do wrong for you to suddenly hate like that. We ended on good terms like 3 fucking years ago. You’re still the same immature 15 year old boy I met freshman year.
Learn to grow some fucking balls and just say shit to my face. Fucking immature sack of shit.
October 4, 2013 - October 6, 2013
I visited June this weekend at SDSU and it really was a great weekend. I met so many sweet, welcoming people. Lemme just say now, the guys in SD are freaking gorgeous compared to most of the guys at my school.(No offense)
The drive to San Diego was honestly not that bad. There wasn’t much scenery but being alone in my car was the greatest feeling I’ve ever had. Being able to sing without being bothered, not having to change my music to what someone else would like, and not having to talk the entire time was so great.
On Friday, we just went to a dayger, I saw some gorgeous frat boys, then we went back to her room and caught up on old times.
On Saturday, we went to a really nice mall that was right by her dorm. I went crazy cause I had money to spend…. We got back around 5 and she fell asleep till 8. We got ready for the party with her crazy friends and finally left around 10. We walked a mile to a baseball party and it was so packed and so hot. We went outside after a few of us had a few cups of something called Jungle Juice. I didn’t want to be just drunk so this gorgeous french guy smoked me out. We had a pretty nice conversation going and it wasn’t awkward. Once I was crossed, everything hit me at once and it felt great. I’ll admit I got a little too fucked up but it was fine cause June was taking care of me. There were cops everywhere and I just didn’t wanna be sloppy. I honestly tried really fucking hard to be able to function. As June and I were leaving, one of her floormates who was at the party, grabbed my ass twice cause I couldn’t leave due to the crowded people and the cops outside. I didn’t know how to react so I just kept pushing June till we were out the door.. We went to a frat party after and it looked pretty sketch so we just left and we went back to her dorm, got money, then left for McDonalds around 1am. As we were walking to McDonalds, there was this huge group of black guys that walked by us. I heard them doing the fox whistle and whatnot so I wasn’t that surprised. What did surprise me though, was that one of the black guys grabbed my ass really hard as I walked by. I was too high to really react so I just kept walking cause I was scared. Once we got to McDonalds, more black guys were hollering at us, literally. It was excruciatingly horrifying. After we ordered, we got the hell out of there and went back to her room. I ate around 2:30am and definitely regretted it the next morning. (I hadn’t eaten McDonalds in a year or so…) I called Daniel just to talk, which I find fucking weird. But we did so anyways and it was pretty chill. I remember getting mad and hanging up on him twice but I don’t remember why. After that, I watched How I Met Your Mother till 4am then fell asleep.
On Sunday, I woke up at 9-9:30am to June’s neighbors blasting country and pounding on her door. Of course she didn’t wake up; yet, I did… I watched a few more episodes of HIMYM and she woke up around noon. We went downstairs to the UTK(kind of like the gastronome at CSUF), and I got sweet tea while she got some acai berries. I said goodbye to all her friends and started driving home. The drive back was relaxing and it was nice to have some alone time to myself.
Overall, this weekend really was one I won’t forget. It was fun and wild and scary all at the same time. I can’t wait until the next time I’m in San Diego.
I just got an insult about my nose. I’m used to insult but this was the first time somebody ever insulted my nose that I can recall. Surprisingly, it doesn’t hurt me at all. It was one of the first insults on ask.fm that I’ve gotten in a really long time. Not surprising but still shocking in a way cause I didn’t think people still cared enough to go on my ask.fm just to insult me and try to hurt my feelings from behind a computer screen/mobile device. I guess 7+ years of being bullied really helped. I figured that now that I’m in college, people would forget about me and my past.. Guess not huh
I looked in the mirror just now and my nose is cute as a button in my opinion. So to that anon that said “Did you get punched in the nose because it looks flat as fuck”, thanks bro. You assisted me in realizing how fucking cute my nose is. Keep them insults coming.